a teaser....

i'm back...yes, in case you didn't notice it, i've been away, and now i have a helluva a lot to write about. but not tonight. i'm tired, and a little down about a particular (temporary, but not temporary enough) circumstance in my life...well, pouting and feeling sorry for myself is more like it....yes, i know...you don't have to say it.....

so anyhow, here's a taste of the coming posts: getting nails done with a subby friend and his mistress...a tour of a few vancouver sex shops...my tantric massage (and the delicious masseur)....why i'm not so fond of young men....a little new (and not to be repeated) power play experience....the best chocolate drink ever....tart....and a new special friend...and...oh yes, hotels.....

talk to y'all soon...

lush

mmm....a reason for cake...

remember that telephone interview? the one i hated? well folks, i got the job (she says, grinning from ear to ear). 'guess they saw some of my fabulousness after all. :)

it's a celebration cake by the way...the only kind i get since i gave up sugar....

an emotional dance...

we haven't met in person yet. a message on a dating site leads to a chat on a messenger site, and i feel like we've known each other before. there is a uniqueness that touches my core. it's only been a few nights, each conversation awkwardly revealing layers....

it's his fragility that holds me. it's the truth in her words. it's the uniqueness of his soul, laid so bare...yes...his...her...an androgynous soul...

plans underway to meet...with my promise to respect the fragility of a person healing...

lush

tantric healing....

i've booked a session for a sensual massage (the first of many i hope...). check it out http://www.nextlevelbodycare.com/ When i first found it (through james' profile on another site i love) i was immediately captivated. the last two years have been a time of tremendous growth, healing, exploration, and insight for me, and at times i feel like i am nearing the end of a chrysalis stage of life...(well, at least one of the many cycles of emotional/psychological/spiritual transformation in our lives).

i've already been doing some healing body work (working on my chakras), but realized i've realized that I am still physically holding onto negative energy in my body. i've always had difficulty to various degrees being completely and fully emotionally present at times when I am involved with someone sexually (some of you may understand this, some may not), and I'm at a point where this is not okay with me anymore, and i want to more fully realize the fundamental connectedness between my physical/emotional/psychological/spiritual/sexual aspects of my nature. sound like difficult task? i don't think so...a long process maybe, but i know it will be so worth the journey....

i'll let you know how the session goes....

peace,

lush

my mission...should i choose to accept....

sooo....someone mentioned to me today that i must remember to "diversify"...and he wasn't referring about my portfolio (no...i don't really have one ...). he was, instead, responding to my lack of dating women recently... a woeful lack if i do say so. i do miss a woman's soft skin, her lips, her breasts, her moans when i.....well, you get the picture (i know that i have it in technicolour in my mind right now).

so i asked myself why is it that most all of my recent play has been with men? and ya know what i came up with? there aren't enough kinky bi or lesbian women... hmmmm....i don't want to think that my answer is right, so i'm on a mission to seek out fabulous, kinky lesbians or bi women....(an honourable mission in life i think....).

glibness aside, i really do miss women. there is a certain aspect of sensuality i feel with women that i don't find with men.... and if you know me at all by now, you know i choose to not try to fit myself into the "white picket fence, monogamously happily ever after" way of being. instead, i could envision an ideal life where i have a committed partner of each gender (and being able to still play with others when the desire arises...)...ah, i just want it all....

well, reconnaissance has begun, and i will keep you posted....

lush